Time and time again...
For the past weeks I’ve been feeling very sick again. This summer has been quite the catastrophe health-wise and left me very stressed when it comes to university and especially art. When I came home for holidays after an exhausting semester, I wanted to spend all of my time on trying to improve my art. There was so much I wanted to draw because I know there won’t be enough time for these things once holidays are over. Anyway, I got very frustrated when I noticed that I felt too sick to keep drawing and pretty much wasted several weeks that I could have spent practicing and improving. Everyday I kept beating myself up for not being able to pull myself together and just keep working as others do. Long story short - few days ago I was diagnosed with another chronic disease. It’s nothing too horrible, just another thing that I have to learn to deal with. I don’t even want to talk about it in particular, but there’s this thing that keeps bothering me as well as many other people out there. It’s this feeling that you’re being left behind in whatever you do because of your poor physical and/or mental health.
Took me a while to finally start watching Free! again… I’ve been putting it off for quite some time because I wasn’t ready for all the feels TwT (While watching the episodes I almost woke up my parents with my wailing and laughing)
Anyway, the day of rest did some good, so I actually managed to finish this piece!
Apparently I got sick, but kept ignoring it… today my dad decided to watch Lord of the Rings together, so I’d finally get some proper rest on the sofa. Drew this in my sketchbook while watching the Two Towers~ I’ve been feeling too dizzy to make any digital art lately, so for now a pencil drawing is good too :D
Quick reminder, that we often try to catch up with some super artist that isn’t even real. You know, that one who can do absolutely anything, learnt it within a week, doesn’t need any sleep and is working on like a hundred successful projects at the same time. We’re being all sad and frustrated because we think we’re no good compared to that one super artist. But then, who is?
During last semester I really got into art history but sadly, in class we didn’t cover any of the old masters. I decided to look some of them up on my own and then realised that I could learn a lot from their paintings, especially when it comes to colour. Therefore I decided to make some studies.
Usually, my attempts at trying to learn something new don’t go that well… I get discouraged after only few failed drawings or I’m too indecisive as what to do next. This time, I decided to simply prepare some sheets with old paintings and blank boxes on them, so I’d just have to open the file and get to work on the next piece in line. I’m trying to do one every day (which is not always working out as planned, haha), but I’m surprised that I managed to make six of them already!
I’m trying to guess the colors (no colour picking involved) and I believe the effort is paying off at least a little. I’m starting to think of colour in a very different way. For now I’m still not very good at this. Those tiny pictures take far too long and painting them tires me out immensely… But I’ve decided that I need to start somewhere and I can’t be discouraged by not getting an instant payoff. I’m just hoping that with time, I’m going to learn something usefull!
Since the elves responsible for the wine like to fall asleep in the middle of work, Thranduil went down to the cellar himself to fetch a new bottle.
Mostly I just wanted to draw the cellar as well as practice lighting wich I still find very difficult X_x
One of the things that sprang into my mind after watching Days of Future Past
It’s summer holidays so I finally got time to reopen commissions! Gonna save up some money for next semester :D
Instead of going to bed I’ll just sit here and draw random stuff~ I’m still too excited about all the free time!